I make myself a little sick inside. I was just thinking about how I need a job over break and how I would love to work at starbucks, then the idea of seeing if a homeless shelter was hiring someone/ just volunteering there all break also seemed appealing. Let's look at these two ideas... one caters to the people who can easily afford a $3-$5 cup of coffee that in reallity isn't really any good, the other serves those who need the most help. Really? How can one person desire both things? I mean, Jesus even tell of how a person't can't serve two masters; he will either hate one and love the other, or love the one and loath the other. In the end he says man cannot serve both God and money. Why do I think I can? One of these is serving God and the other is serving money. I think I know which is which and yet I'm not sure. Why is that? Why am I not sure of what I am serving? I know God can use me where ever I end up (even if I don't get a job... which I hope doesn't happen) but still, I would like to get it right the first time for once. this is just too much. I need sleep. taking a gov exam tomorrow that I am nowhere near ready for... lovely.