Last week I had dinner with Mary. It was wonderful catching up, cooking then watching Glee and Lost. At one point during the night, the conversation took a turn toward what it means to be a woman of God. During our conversation I realized that I have no idea what that means. I have read Proverbs 31, and that seems to be an unattainable standard. Other than that I read stories of Deborah who was a great leader, Easther who was the savior of her people, and Mary who literally gave birth to the son of God. I don't really know how to be a woman after God's heart.
This confusion is making me uncomfortable trying to lead women younger than myself. How can I sit in front of one of my girls and be the roll model then need? I know I will never have everything figured out, but I don't know that I should feel this unsure. Then again, maybe it is a good thing being uncertain. I don't know.