Guilty Pleasure

I've discovered a "new" guilty pleasure. I use the word new loosely, since it's one I've had for quite sometime, but haven't really put a name to it. Said indulgence is found in hokey supernatural movies. We're talking movies like The Order, and Dogma. Tonight, I really wanted to watch one that I watched last year. It's called Ba'al: The Storm God. Yes, it is as wonderfully awful as it sounds. Well, they didn't have it and I'm not gonna lie, I was pretty bummed out. But instead I rented Dogma and a movie called Gabriel that is advertised as similar to Ba'al on some websites, so I figured it would be a safe bet. I'll know tomorrow after I watch it.

I think my favorite part about these kinds of movies (other than the obvious religious ties running through them) would be the tag lines. For example, the tag line of Gabriel is "Between Heaven and Hell lies the fate of mankind." Like, how epic is that!

Anyways, I really need to go to sleep. I have a pretty big day tomorrow. It's Family Weekend, meaning mom (and maybe dad?) are coming to visit for Senior Wine and Cheese. I'm really excited, so I need to catch some sleep. I'll update on the epicness that is Gabriel tomorrow. :)

In A Tight Spot

So, buying the house seems to have fallen through. We couldn't fix our credit score enough to get the loan to buy the house. I'm really worried about what that means for my family and myself. Mom emailed Pastor Paul at my church and asked if there was anyone who wanted to buy our house to rent to us for the next year until we can fix our credit and get the loan. We haven't heard back yet though. I'm really concerned that he's not going to help us. I don't think he likes me very much and I'm nervous that he will take that out on my family.

Last year when our church first started talking about leaving the ELCA I wrote him a letter detailing why I thought it was the wrong move. I did that in September and didn't hear back from him until like November. His letter back was pretty curt and didn't really seem pleasant. Now, I could very easily be reading into it emotions that aren't there and I acknowledge that possibility. However, when I stood up in our town hall meetings to discuss this issue he seemed to not be happy to see me. It could be something else. I'll be honest, I haven't dealt with him much before this, so it could just be his personality, but I don't know.

If he doesn't help us with the house because of me, I'm going to be so upset. I don't know how I will handle that. I'm not going to do anything stupid, but it's probably not going to be very productive either.

I feel like through all of this madness God and I have become pretty tight. But I still doubt that this will all work out. Like, I know in my head He is going to take care of my family and me, but in my heart I feel like I'm going to be let down. Why do I feel like this? I mean, He's God! He can do whatever the hell he wants. Maybe that's why it scares me. He can do what He wants. Like, maybe He wants my family to in essence be homeless. Maybe He want's me to suffer for some reason. I don't know, and that terrifies me. Does that make me a bad Christian? Probably...

Oh! So, I'm going on the Common Ground retreat tonight. I'm not staying over, because I have way too much work, but I'm going to go for a while. I'm really looking forward to it. I heard great things about the one from last year, and I'm hoping this will give me a chance to work somethings out with God.

Right now, I have a ton of homework and a headache that is rivaling a migraine. So I'm going to go to Un Mundo and work for a couple hours and drink some coffee and eat some lunch/dinner and hope everything works out.

Housing Update

Ok, so here is the latest on the house situation. We are going to try and buy it. Actually, Mom and Dad put in an offer yesterday. I guess as long as we get approval by the morgage company we are good to go.

In other news, I got a haircut today. It's a little shorter than I wanted but I know it will grow out to a good length in a couple weeks. So that's cool.

Ok, I'm off to bed. Night!

Too much to tell...

So, it's just over a week before I am able to move into the ministry house. But that is not the only move that I'm dealing with. My family found out that we have to find a new house. Our landlady has allowed our house to go into foreclosure. So we have to be out by the 11th and we really don't have a place to live yet. I'm really frustrated with this all. there is nothing my family can do to be able to keep living here and that totally sucks. I know in the end it will all work out, it always does, I would just really love for something to work out before we hit crunch time. I'm getting a little tired of the God induced ulcer that my life has a tendency to be.

However, I am so excited to get back to Witt. I miss it so much. With everything that has been going on here in Hilliard I really can't wait to get back to where my friends are. I feel like I have no break from it all.

I am loving my parent's Netflix subscription. I have been watching The Office like it's my job which is really funny because there are so many similarities between the two. You gotta love it.

At it again!

So, we all know how bored I get and how I need little projects to keep me occupied. I have a new one I'm going to work on this summer.

I was talking with my friend Marsha about her organization, Amazing Gifts of Hope, fair trade and human trafficking. She was saying the organization's store is laid out so people can have parties and teach their friends about what many men, women and children around the world suffer through. The promote being aware of how our purchasing habits can effect others in the global community.

It was wonderful hearing her talk about this topic which has weighed so heavily on my heart for the last year. I was moved to do something. So, in true Kate fashion, I offered to pull together a concert to raise awareness. I'm hoping to do it for the end of July or beginning of August. I need to find some music artists to play, but I'm taking it one step as a time.

I'm excited to have another concert to plan. It's becoming one on my favorite things. I love music. I am so happy when something I love works together with my passions. People come to the concerts for the music and (I hope) leave with their eyes opened to the truly blessed life we have here in America. I am thankful that I am in this country of opportunity. I used to feel guilty that I have so much while others have so little. Now I realize I am here for a reason. God doesn't make mistakes. He knew I could use my resources to help people who are on the margins.

If you want to check out the Amazing Gifts of Hope store click here.
If you want to read what Marsha has to say, you can find that here.

Please, if you have a passion for something speak up. You will never know who shares that passion and what opportunities can arise from you teaming up with others.


"Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world." -James 1:27

Thinking of the Future

Well, I've been thinking about post graduation a lot. I have a couple of ideas. I'm not sure which to pursue.

1. Opening a coffee shop.
This has been a dream of mine for over a decade. I have been designing coffee shops as long as I have been drinking the lovely drink. Not just that, but I could make it a Fair Trade coffee shop. That way, I would be making money while improving the lives of people who are usually cheated. That is incredibly important to me. No matter what I end up doing in the long run, I want to help people.

2. Going to Grad School
This could be either seminary or normal grad school. I don't really know yet. Both sounds appealing for different reasons. I'm not going at discerning if I am being called somewhere, so I'm not sure about seminary. I am a logical thinker. I try not to go with my gut all the time. Because of that I am leaning towards normal grad school; probably at OSU so I can live at home and save money/help out.

3. Doing LVC/AmeriCorp
This can help me to pay for my loans and what not. Also, I would get some real life experience. I feel like this could be a really good chance for me to grow up. In some ways I feel like I am very grown up. In others I still feel like an infant. Plus, if I did the LVC program I could finally go to Seattle. I've always wanted to go there. I would also be living in a community house with my team. It would be a very neat to experience this.

4. The Peace Corps
When I was young I swore I would never want to go into the Peace Corps. But now I find that I was wrong. I really want to travel some day. I want to see the world. This seems like a good chance to do that. And I would be helping people.


At the end of my life I don't want to look back and see that I have accomplished nothing with my life. I want to have a family. I want to help people who need it. I have more than enough to give and still be comfortable. I have a long life ahead of me, I want to do something with it. I just need figure out what to do first.

I'm just sick of it...

I have never been a small girl. I've always been overweight. Even as a child I was one of the bigger girls in my class. But I'm tired of it. I'm tired of not really liking how I look and not feeling confident.

I think part of the reason I haven't done anything about the weight problem is because I don't want to get hurt in relationships. Guess what? That didn't work. I'm always getting hurt because I never have relationships progress beyond "just friends".

I'm done with that. I'm done not liking me. I'm done being lazy. I want to feel healthier. I don't want to have the health problems my dad has. Heart disease runs very deep in my family. So does cancer. I don't want to risk that.

All this to say, I'm hopefully going to actually do something about this. And because I respond to peer pressure I'm starting another blog. You can follow it here.

So, that's the deal. Hopefully I'll be in better shape in August and you all at school can see a difference. But we will see.